| 11:40 PM |
[Jul. 2nd, 2004|11:40 pm] |
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| | reckless - Ninety9left | ] |
As the seconds blur into minutes and the minutes blur into hours, an odd almost disturbing serenity comes over me. I guess it's because my mind is awake, but my body is quite far from it. It's a quite interesting state that progresses after passing that point of almost immeasurable fatigue; you have no concept of time other than it's flying (thanks Ani) and that 5 minutes really is 20. I wish school was like that.
I leave for Atlanta in about 2 hours. I'm purposely staying awake so that I can pleasantly slumber in our Toyota Camry's oh-so-large backseat </sarcasm> Also my wrist has been bothering me, so I put a wrap on it. I wonder what's on tv at 11:46 PM, I'm not sure if I want to find out, but all I have is channels 6,8, and 13, so I don't think much will be on. Ewww infomercials, the thought makes me cringe.
I really should get sleep because I'll most likely be working my butt off on Monday.
Despite some people's opinions, watching and keeping track of 5+ kids and making sure that they're not under a horse's hooves is hard work! I've done it before, and sometimes I feel as if I become one of the horses and fall into a ritualistic being and become completely oblivious to the new ways I could look at the situation. Of course I am not completely awake, so if my not-so-deep inner deliberations are confusing, don't fret, you're not the only one they confuse (i.e. me) and thus the reason I type them.
It is quite hard to type with an Ace bandage on your wrist, but I'll manage, it's not like I have anything else to do, right? Well it seems like everyone has one Bible verse that changed their outlook on life and I thought that was cool until I found mine, and now I think it's just downright uncanny! Psalm 37:5 totally changed my outlook for some reason. I've heard it all before, but hearing isn't listening. Oh well, maybe I should listen more...I'll add that to my to do list....haha it's quite long. |
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| w00t |
[Jul. 2nd, 2004|06:56 pm] |
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Revelation: Prayer works, from the LARGEST THING EVER to the smallest little request. Today as I walked up to Starbucks I asked God to let me see one of my friends while I was out, and lo and behold as I was leaving Starbucks I see Logan, Joe, and Joey walking across the parking lot and they're calling for me. Then after chatting for a bit I walked home and realized my prayer was totally answered. That deserves a big WHOOP WHOOP. Bye everyone, I'm leaving for the big ATL in about 7 hours, ehhh so early in the morning ...groan... |
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| Why other countries think that Americans are stupid |
[Jul. 2nd, 2004|10:28 am] |
As I was watching TV this morning the program I was watching was suddenly interrupted by a "Special News Report." Of course, the 5 second intro leaves minds to wander as to what amazing tragedy has rocked our homeland...Marlon Brando Dies at Age 80...yes, he was the Godfather, but ok, come on, it can be on the news later, you don't have to interrupt TV for it... and also, Americans have stupid jokes such as "America spells cheese K-R-A-F-T"...actually no, America spells cheese: c-h-e-e-s-e. Oh well, I can't elevate myself above the people that think that is funny, because I use Kraft cheese at my house...(Sharp cheddar is yummy)
I think that the American Dream has become morphed and twisted to where we become a very idolistic society...*coughAMERICANIDOLcoughcough* and that's why it's so hard to keep faith, because there are so many easy-way-outs. Sometimes I wish I lived out in the boondocks so that I couldn't be touched by the so-called luxuries that pin us down and pull us down. We weren't created with TV, Internet, or cellphones; so why should we depend on them now? We should depend on our Creator. When we were created we had trees and animals, no clothes or PDAs.
Also, to the protest of some of my friends, we weren't created with Student Venture or the Getaway, so there is a point when we shouldn't depend on those things for spiritual growth. There is a point when we have to break off from our meetings and speakers and find our faith with God and only God. We have to spend time in Thw Word and in prayer and ask God to lead us. Jesus is our Savior, not our pastor or youth leader. Now I love my pastor and I love my youth leaders, but I don't love them like I love Jesus, I see and touch these people each day. But I live in anticipation of seeing and touching and worshipping Jesus for eternity. Well before I say the same thing again, I'm going to post this...peace out! |
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| my paper heart has writing on it |
[Jun. 29th, 2004|03:29 pm] |
Where does my time go?...down the drain...I waste my precious moments
on this earth doing things that have no purpose...my lil' ol' brain is
exhausted! I can barely think straight...but can I ever? Ahh
well...what did I learn today? I have a new fav. verse. tis John 21:25
25 Jesus did many other things as well. If every one of them were
written down, I suppose that even the whole world would not have room
for the books that would be written.
It just shows how great our Savior is! Well that verse made my day. I can't wait to go to bible study tonight.
On a slightly less important note, I'm trying to figure out if I should
feel guilty for liking the All American Rejects. :) Oh well if someone
thinks less of me because of the music I listen to, that's their
problem. Not mine. I absolutely adore the pictures I've taken over the
past few days.
Puppy:
http://www.angelfire.com/hero/rocklock/Picture_015.jpg
She shall go un-named...either way, she's a friend figuring out how to use my camera the hard way:
http://www.angelfire.com/hero/rocklock/Picture_016.jpg
I want to become a freelance review writer at the moment, getting help from a friend, it mostly means free cds :) w00t
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| Love songs |
[Jun. 28th, 2004|10:44 pm] |
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It's so cliche, and yet so true, that it is hard to say goodbye to the ones you love. Yet the old love songs that we revere speak of eternally lost loves, yet I'll only be gone for a few weeks! It's the contact, the fellowship, the touch that I'll miss, the "hey's" and the "How are ya's?" I'll miss the human contact. It's amazing to think that in a short school year, I've made closer friends than my entire lifetime. I've made friends that I KNOW I'll keep in touch will, because I'd kick myself in the rear if I didn't. I've found a different kind of romantic love, where the two are in a friendship love with each other, but deeply in love with Jesus.
Old love songs can't even explain how much I'll miss everyone, and frankly nor can I! But being the person I am, I'll try...I've been immersed in this environment so deeply and so long, that I'd feel naked without those people around me, but that is where my true and deep faith will come from....from the times where I rely on my relationship with God and not others. I cannot look to other people's faith for my own, I must believe what is written and put my faith in the God that exists and has existed eternally in three persons.
It's funny that even when I go out to share my faith, sometimes I don't get to, or I just don't but I develop the relationships that I have already. I'm not saying that one is better than the other, because getting to know God as well as his children is always good and fun. Without my security blanket friends that I adore, I might just get a taste of my own faith, and I pray that I do. I pray that I'll come back a changed person. A person that no conference or little booklet can change, but that is only changed by faith and that amazing father that created this earth in 6 days!
I'm the kind of person that remembers quotes...I love to quote people because everyone is unique and everyone has something to say in his or her own way...so here is one of my favorite quotes...
What we do is less than a drop in the ocean. But if it were missing, the ocean would lack something.
Mother Teresa (1910 - 1997)
God bless that wonderful servants soul! That woman had wisdom that could only come from a God like our God. And just like we are droplets missing from the ocean, little pieces of my life are missing when I am away from the ones I love. Don't we want to make a wave? We should all band together and make a tidal wave over this earth, because we are mere drops of water alone, but together, we can destroy Satan's plans against us, and plant the seed in those who need God. As my time awake nears it's end and I start to yawn in an all-too-true way, I realize that it is only God's will that I am here, and only God's will that I will wake up in the morning. I know I have not completed my purpose here on earth. I know that I will wake up in the morning to worship the one who willed me from dust and created me in his image....Amen. |
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